emptiness twists like a shoelace
a picture that was only ever traced
any color it felt quickly erased
to be replaced with cold space
I'm just barely clinging to sobriety
and maybe perhaps its just society
denying me and telling me what
I'm supposed to have inside of me
so come ride with me to the highest peak of my anxieties
speak some of your own if you are beside me

Been grinding writing rhyming
trying to develop a sense of timing
rock band in the garage
on tracks spitting a barrage
hitting notes, three times a day
breakfast lunch and yesterday
working a couple of jobs to get decent pay
acting like I got time like Dorian Grey
trying to save up to move out
learning ways to smooth doubt
composing some new sounds
but that means I lose out
on friends to make the ends meet
on treats and bussing down streets
I walk home so I can write a new poem
and save the bus fare that I'd be owing
I Don't eat, don't sleep,
writing till my arms go weak
lying under sheets rhymes speak
feeling obsessed like a freak
friends tell me to take time off
I scoff I'm trying to get aloft
get caught in the stream to the top

I'm lonely but I think I'm better off alone
For you'll shine brighter on your own
if you give me some time and the stars do align
I promise you then you will be mine
but for now I'm in a maze of my thoughts
just trying to reach as high as the astronauts

If this is my shot, I wont choke
I can't go lower I'm already broke
so its this or the rope saying nope
so lets go, staying afloat on the flow
the last raft of the titanic
I will blow or be titanic
thoughts I'll fail panic my fabric
I want twelfth night no tragic
of life you gotta grab it
I've no illusion of magic
so lifes block I'll stack it
I got that hip like I'm tragically fit
and that hop like a rabbit so quick
I want it bad I'm rabid
The Tv with no bunny ears is up in the attic
so watch me break through all the static
its fantastic,
what a dream can mean when your an addict
I get lost in the traffic, rush hour havok
trying to systematically clear a passage out

I'm lonely but I think I'm better off alone
For you'll shine brighter on your own
if you give me some time and the stars do align
I promise you then you will be mine
but for now I'm in a maze of my thoughts
just trying to reach as high as the astronauts

Aint no musician call me an astronaut
Cause this is space to explore my thoughts
This beat is my vessel, it's in my blood
artistry in arteries, pumping into the hub
I have my heart in this, I'm part of this
it all connects like veins I am an artist
Up at seven to work on ryhmes
Aint put out much, but I'm just giving it time
I'm a clockmaker so rolax
Watch as each word fits into the lines
a lyricist for those inclined
My path rose its a thin climb
But this road I chose been kind
I don't fit in a box, so change your frame of mind
if I can't define myself then why you tryin
Rapper, actor, poet with no master
kid careening forward never looking behind
I don't got time for hindsight, so I'm blind
Got my mind on limelight, that is the grind
Working like a smith, each bar gets refined
each line is correct, I'm the king of masterminds