So this is how it starts with some pain and some scars With dreams that are dark These beats and these bars or whatevers handy Just some artsy white kid That grew up on Propagandhi Cash and some Pip Skid Not particularly wise But I've seen some sighs So I'm going to try to share My stories with care So perhaps prepare As the music consumes Looms and tares me Relax and breath in air Lay down in your room Its been a rough year I've got a lot to say If you want to hear I've got some hope to trade If you're buying used Memories abused Into rhyme schemes And vocal streams I'm bursting at the seams it seems These rhymes that I'm speaking are the words that've been leaking Out of my eyes I'm just tweaking Them into some with meaning Not just for me But for all out at sea Lost in cold memories and dreams that blow on the breeze But I hope these tunes Can bring warmth like sand dunes To a cold march Music well writ soothes the souls sick Thanks to it thing done with a Bic I'm still alive here and I hold that dear please have some faith I'm still building pace This song is a mess like my dreams I guess But it gets better I've seen those letters arranged that way so many times That I know when they are lying And I promise that it can so hold my hand, make a plan together we can stand I want to sell me Without selling a dream I want to tell freely without dancing on beams I want to speak plain without metaphorical canes But I hide behind names and words that sound the same These rhymes that I'm speaking are the words that've been leaking Out of my eyes I'm just tweaking Them into some with meaning Not just for me But for all out at sea Lost in cold memories and dreams that blow on the breeze But I hope these tunes Can bring warmth like sand dunes To a cold march This has gone on too long this song is all wrong I'll try to make this quick brisk and switch through tracks which with luck'll skip like old disks Cause see this isn't what I wish I don't have the gift to write a slick Musical catharsis That is Carting this Broken Car of stiffs To the far off cliffs So I write on my wrists I shoot and I miss So here it is I'm just an accomplice To this a wish to be missed To show other will be too to ease suffering and sooth To use this language to translate my dreams Into positive things To walk through life with a pen not a knife To write songs that belong to all in the throng, before their gone. So speak with a purpose Cause know it is worth it To speak plain and clear but that requires confronting fear cause it is scary to speak the truth following your dream and letting loose Cause dreams are nightmares that seem light and caring Till you are staring down At all you tried to drown come back around.

I want to paint  Over exposed  City lights faint With my prose And my verse I want to share My love first With the air Then with paper Then with you The music intaker The few Because in the end I want you to feel What I try to send Will be real I want to paint  Over exposed  City lights faint With my prose And my verse I want to share My love first With the air Then with paper Then with you The music intaker The few Because in the end I want you to feel What I try to send Will be real That this gives hope When that you lack When night says nope And your visions black That my words Can in an odd way Be a cure As daybreak fades These broken riffs Unplanned sounds Can stop a cliff jump Or sorrows drowned That my voice Bad as it is Can make a choice To give up pointless I want to draw The night sky What you see  when you close your eyes Somewhere safe  and so alive The sorta place Where we can thrive I want you to see The message between  words that flow free And what i have seen I created a Picasso Based off this world  I perceive like van Gogh Eyesight swirled Confused like the night  Lines pour a fast flow Quickly take flight But drift like snow When i try To explain And describe My plain aim Try to bare my soul So please if you can Bare this with me I've got no plan But I’ll try to see The night beautiful The mighty dark And paint in full With all the stark  Colors and Contrast  In Life perils   So they'll last Like rose pedals  Painted in Lyrical acrylic  Fill it in Till it perfect I want to draw The night sky What you see  when you close your eyes Somewhere safe  and so alive The sorta place Where we can thrive I seem to ramble That’s not true I just stumble While walking through  A straight path Covered in thorns My face smacked scared and worn But i promise If you take a good look In at this Its an old book A lil Convoluted Yet focused  Words voluted But I'm just a Poet So I’m sorry This isn't clear The story If you can hear Is I'm here For you out there Because my fear Is that you'll tare I'll paint your face With colours vivid  On some lace That I’ll rivet To steel bars Cause your strong Like godly mars Yet pretty as dawn Like airs own song

I try again to fly and send my lies and then pen my disguise but die from den inside my head so my cries are sent into the skies So friend please realize I'm like a french fry that forgotten will lie till the end of days I mend then descend i fix and fall Icarus is my model ridiculous to be tall lightning hits then splits your little sick shoddy sullen Stick of a body your a wick flickering out tick tock shouts the fixed clock cause you've no more time to be bought your caught red handed aflame draining the pain leaving you plain But through all this We still gotta wish for something unlikely like the loch ness appearing all fresh Suit and tie all dressed Ready to take in those with less So light these candles in the dark I'm just playing my part Like the moth to the flame My life just drains away "The higher you are the farther your fall" Every quote means something different when spoke These aren’t scientific facts but warnings whispering ways to withstand highs happiness holding anything close That probably the most depressing thing I wrote So wash my mouth with soap Because what were hearing is supposed to be endearing Your supposed to leave the fear an the burning searing yearning behind your learning displaying is a danger a poachers and a ranger A coach door stranger To bare your dirt and mud for others to judge cause all they see is sludge not the diamonds in the rough your not inherently evil Your like a parent regal That caught you dating Someone they be hating So You're caught between two obligations stating patience and logic Should be your object of desire Yet the decision is dire can you afford to wait for the fire To die down before you touch down on the ground So light these candles in the dark I'm just playing my part Like a moth to the flame My life just drains away "For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction" To hold something close is to put something on roast accepting the fire that'll burn your desire Of course This isn't true But the sky isn't blue We just perceive it that way on a bright sunny day Illusions pursuing Perusing the ruins of my mind using time on their side knowing if they ride beside my eyes long enough I'll find them as truth That I was better in my youth So don’t tell me I’m distant, don’t tell me I’m cold Don't yell your wishing I’m the me of old I want it too instead of seeing woven The views of the life that I’ve chosen And the loose cobwebs stolen Into the fabric of my labrat being Seeing every end lend itself well to a semi-colon these rolling words unfurled now swirl so look in the end I am a unfinished book So light these candles in the dark I'm just playing my part Like a moth to the flame My life just drains away Through the gutter My evils splutter Out of my mind To make way for something kind Illusion pursuing and perusing the cost per using your head To loosen, move an delusion Costly situations you read

The first date I saw your face Lit up in Picture perfect ways Hand in hand No other plans Just bench seats And cheap treats Long walks By the beach Red cheeks We're getting cold But Bed sheets Could never hold Me quite at peace As your sweet Warm embrace  Held in your arms I'm in the right place But gosh darn  It if wasn't  The wrong time If we weren't blind Saying things like Glowing smiles You've stunning eyes Well go miles Free of disguise  Run like the Nile Under starry skies Say we're in style  But it seems we lie cause Tears are dripping Behind the kissing  So we are wishing time wasn't ticking It isn't over Nooooo It isn't over Nooooo Just one more day Just once more say It isn't over yet Those night Under the starlight Looking up Counting our luck The joy of life  Was dripping ripe It was right In front of us Laying beside The trees and sky Lucky to be alive So we find Ourselves together Birds of a feather Or a jacket leather Sewn in we line Patch us on To each others arm So we'll never leave Each others sleeve Sewn so close Each others dose Of medication These lines We used to be together but Now there mine I wear the fetter uh Click define Chains manacles etcetera Its all fine Is it though Cause look here yo See I ain’t blind To each to there own though So lets click rewind It isn't over Nooooo It isn't over Nooooo Just one more day Just once more say It isn't over yet We both know That low and behold  Sunshine goes away I'll tip my hat  Say good day As we go  our separate ways Cause it's over Oh It is over So We will go Our separate ways We will go Our separate ways

I want to be alone Without being lonely So I’ll jump in a crowd I'll jump into the sea Try to relax and respect Whats in you and me Cause in our own way we all want to be alone Without being lonely I want to watch Without having to talk I'm terrified to be me I'm scared of what they want to see Of what comes when Everything's gone to silence Its not that i hate people I'm not quite that violently evil Its not that I don’t want to talk I just don't want to do it a lot Basically its not Whatever you think it is So just stop Because its foolish To think you understand A completely different planned Person that’s hurting In places you don't have I'm just being frank I'm just saying if I sank You wouldn't know How my boat ever stayed afloat I want to be alone Without being lonely So I’ll jump in a crowd so I'll jump into the sea Try to relax and respect Whats in you and me Cause in our own way we all want to be alone Without being lonely I don't do well at parties I can barely sleep Much less eat Life's not so much a breeze But leaves in a windtunnel Spinning at speeds That are ghastly But i want to be neat And just meet  New folks to greet Move peoples feet Be called sweet But have no one Notice that I creep Away from all seats Into a corner  And feel like a freak I can't understand you But you can't understand me Because we are two  Completely different beasts spinning in space dreaming in the aether trying to find a place to tie and tether before we tire of the same weather I want to be alone Without being lonely So I’ll jump in a crowd so I'll jump into the sea Try to relax and respect Whats in you and me Cause in our own way we all want to be alone Without being lonely I'm scared of crowds I'm scared by loud Noises and doubts I'm scared of being alone But if you let fear control you It will strangle and it will hold you If you let self doubt Decide what you are about You'll be never more  Anything else but or What you fear they see But i promise thee What they think Can and will shrink Just blink back fears But let the tears fall That is all Be true to who you are And you will go so far Be good to others and to yourself  And the rest will slowly melt There will be days When all we can do Is scream, ask or pray  To any and all who Could save us But that's enough That's human So let walk across the next bend Hand in hand and stop trying to defend where sorrows land and plan tomorrows person instead